MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING SOON ):

crap, holidays come and go so quickly. I haven't done that commonwealth essay even though I already know what I want to write. I'm just too lazy to get down to it. (just like how i'm so lazy to get some things cleared up) hah.

You really leave me speechless. I don't know what to say to counter you.

Anyway, I'm FINALLY able to hand out that last present that's rotting and collecting dust in my room. That'll be tomorrow. But I still have this unsettling feeling.

I was your back up huh?



you gotta treat me right,
stop telling me those stuff
only when no one else is around

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

i've never.

i've never thought that this would only last such a short while.
i've never thought that between us this would happen.
i've never thought that it would happen so quickly.
i've never thought that i'd be so affected.
i've never thought that you were so important.

i hope it really isn't happening, the gap between us. i hope it's just my mistake on my part. prove me wrong please, because i really am having trouble coping already. don't do this to me.



midnight sun, in norway.
credits to google.


i've never thought you'd have such an impact.

i forgot yesterday.

thank you kennard, for all your help.
i love you mummy <3
i would have died without your help.

thank you, and my cousin thanks you too!

ahhh, what pleasant days.

worried-free, stress-free. i'm so carefree and relaxed (well, wait till school reopens, lydia). Only it's getting a bit boring at home with most of my friends overseas. Adeline can't meet us on wednesday ): she's gonna be going to KL. It's alright, we'll meet up again after she's back!

Hmm, saturday was my second eldest cousin's wedding and it was totally fantastic. I like working as reception, it's really fun, especially being alongside Stella Jie Jie and Allan Kor Kor, two of my cousins. The angpao box was really really heavy at the end!! Haha. I shall just post a few pictures here (:














i'd like to share this with you

hi.

you can totally call me whatever names you want, you know. oh well yeah, names like b**ch and whatever can suck a lot and be very hurting but it doesnt matter. look in the mirror, look at how horrible you look. no no, not the face, not that. WAIT, i don't think you understand what i'm talking about.

thank you kenneth ang. for letting me know that i'm that bitch. funny how i don't feel sad over it huh.

I DON'T NEED YOU

i'm happier than you are.
jingqi you're right, i don't need whats-his-name-cos-i-forgot.

for goodness sake, i am a single entity. people should stop associating me with whatever-his-name-is. and i don't care if his friends hate me.

it's been so long and you can still be pissed about it. yet when i think about it, i find it so hilarious, i can laugh. childish. yet stupid at the same time. you make me proud of myself.

true friends. only one is enough. moreover, i have two at the very least.

bye.





EDIT:









you guys up there in the pictures - kerensa, liyoung, samantha, adeline, clara (even though you're not up there), jingqi, tricia, kennard, zhenwei, yuxuan, kathleen, zhuofei (even though you're not there), zixuan, clement, wilson. i love you all

QI, TRISH! I MISS PAPA, MUMMY AND YOU TWO DAJIE AND ERJIE )):
REN, LY, SAM, ADE, CLARA, I MISS YOU GUYS TOO )):

Went out with Adeline, Kerensa, Samantha and Li Young on Monday!!!!!

I miss them so much ): And we really had a lot of fun. Watched Four Christmases with Li Young, Ade and Ren while waiting for Samantha. Clara was supposed to come, but she couldn't make it in the end ): Wasted. We really had a lot of fun. Played pool too. Ade left early. Oh, okay, pictures!






















AWW MAN, I REALLY MISS THEM SO MUCH.
It was really a hell lot of fun going out with them, talking about our primary school friends, our schools, PROM (which i sadly did not have!!! rarr), joking, crapping, and all that kind of things. We must go out again soon k! And make sure that Clara can make it this time haha.


it never dies

So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
There's no more you
No more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be


All of that was long ago. History. Because recently I've been so happy. Thank you (: Certain things needn't be mentioned here. I've found even a greater happiness I didn't have before and I feel so free, so liberated. How is it I can feel this way sometimes makes no sense to me, considering all the tears back then, all that lamenting, all that anger, all the words used to abuse each other, all the pleading. Suddenly all these things mean nothing, it's as though they never happened.

I don't know how long this happiness will last, but I know that I have to treasure every single second of it, or I'll regret it once it slips by. No, I'm not having a boyfriend, don't be mistaken. It's happiness in another form other than romantic relationships. Thank you thank you (:

Okay I know this post makes no sense to alot of you, sorry.
Oh, Body of Lies got me a bit bored. Maybe because I was really tired too, so i couldn't really appreciate the show. I got a bit freaked out over the blood at one part and the finger o_o gosh, and to think how many violent shows I've already watched with my brother. Haha, still not used to it!

Okay, I'm stopping here if not I'll start talking rubbish again haha.

EDIT:
It isn't that I've already forgotten the past, but rather, keeping it all in my heart and in my mind. It shouldn't be the cause of my bad mood or down mood anymore. It's over, and all I can do is to remember the happiest moments and learn from the worst moments. Thanks to him, for giving me such a memorable memory to keep. It'll stay, and I'll still think about it, but I'll be back to me, back to lively me.

I'll miss you. I'll miss everything. But it's over.
Take care.





I miss papa and mummy xD *winks to jingqi and tricia*

remembrance

haha yes, i took this picture myself at vienna, similar to the one jingqi has - she inspired me to try a shot too (:


That just ain't for me.
Because finally I know
I deserve better after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall.
Not for you.


Days have been somewhat the same. Routine's so repeated everyday. I still haven't exchanged photos with Qi, Trish and Yuxuan! I think there's some from other people but I can't seem to remember hahah. Thank goodness, I finally sent my reflections to Mrs Wong yesterday afternoon, FINALLY.

Oh, there's gonna be bowling tomorrow! Haha, and stupid me is like down with flu, cough and sore throat and probably a bit of slight fever. It's okay I'll still drag myself ahead if it's not that bad tomorrow morning.

Ahhh I didn't notice how late it is already. I shall go to sleep. I HAVE GOT A LOT OF MOVIES I WANT TO WATCH THIS HOLIDAYS!!! ):


As she drove away she starts to smile,
Realized she hadn't for a while.
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial.
I'm done, I'm done, said I'm so done,
I'm free, I'm free, so free
Free to feel the way I feel, yeah.




oh how I miss Vienna~

I'm lazy to blog so here are just some pics from Vienna!


Our dinner table with Ms Tham, Mrs Wong and Uncle Steven!


Trish and me on the bus


Myself and Ruixian the comical senior


Myself and Wilson my neighbour!


Year 4s at Changi Airport before departure (Chen Yang so lucky right lol)


Papa Zhen Wei and myself with Astonian choir girls at farewell dinner (:


Year 4 girls on the steps at shonbrunn palace acting emo


Qi, Trish and me in front of St. Steven's Cathedral


Year 4s making a wish to the candle at the dinner table xD


Qi and myself with an artist who paints and draws fabulous scenes of the place.

I'll upload more next time!
yawn, nights!

I miss vienna



it's back to reality