Took too long to type yesterday's post and it ended up as today's post.
I am super retarded. I keep doing things to embarrass myself. I should really stop being like an 8 year old and really behave like a 17 year old. Yet when I'm serious, you wouldn't want to disturb me. Ahh I don't understand myself. I'm weird, okay.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
11.45pm as i start typing this. But it feels like it's only 9pm to me haha. No idea why!
And now it's 11.54pm because I was too caught up in talking to jinky. THANK YOU JINKY I LOVE YOU LOADS <3 yayyyyyy. fooooooooooooooood and flaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag! :D
I'm actually pretty upset with some stuffs. But oh well, things do happen right. I should have known that this situation would come up in the end. I just chose to ignore it and now I don't know what to do. Dumb Lydia. Yet I'm also thankful this happened because then would I grow from it. Sigh, it gets quite irritating when EVERYONE treats you like you're 8 years old and half the people don't take what you say seriously, or don't even LISTEN to what you have to say. That's me. Thank you very much. I mean, I don't mind it much, like Val and the rest they're perfectly fine, no complaints about them HAHA. But some people... Don't open your arms invitingly and offer to listen when in actual fact you're tuning off 90% of the time I'm trying to open up to you. So loathsome. Ahh, FORGET IT.
BYE.
p.s. i know, we should all embrace each other (quotes keith), but sometimes it's just too much to take
And now it's 11.54pm because I was too caught up in talking to jinky. THANK YOU JINKY I LOVE YOU LOADS <3 yayyyyyy. fooooooooooooooood and flaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag! :D
I'm actually pretty upset with some stuffs. But oh well, things do happen right. I should have known that this situation would come up in the end. I just chose to ignore it and now I don't know what to do. Dumb Lydia. Yet I'm also thankful this happened because then would I grow from it. Sigh, it gets quite irritating when EVERYONE treats you like you're 8 years old and half the people don't take what you say seriously, or don't even LISTEN to what you have to say. That's me. Thank you very much. I mean, I don't mind it much, like Val and the rest they're perfectly fine, no complaints about them HAHA. But some people... Don't open your arms invitingly and offer to listen when in actual fact you're tuning off 90% of the time I'm trying to open up to you. So loathsome. Ahh, FORGET IT.
BYE.
p.s. i know, we should all embrace each other (quotes keith), but sometimes it's just too much to take
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I hate what you do. Hate the way you behave.
I am not someone who is at your beck and call. I am not your dog. Actually you treat me worse than that. At least I think you wouldn't just abandon your dog anytime you want, and only take it back when you want it. You've dashed all hope I've had in you. Even when I face you now, I can no longer bring myself to smile at you. But yet again, you refuse to acknowledge my presence, isn't it.
So actually, why am I even feeling sad over you? Are you worth it?
I guess not.
I am not someone who is at your beck and call. I am not your dog. Actually you treat me worse than that. At least I think you wouldn't just abandon your dog anytime you want, and only take it back when you want it. You've dashed all hope I've had in you. Even when I face you now, I can no longer bring myself to smile at you. But yet again, you refuse to acknowledge my presence, isn't it.
So actually, why am I even feeling sad over you? Are you worth it?
I guess not.
Ahh, I keep having this sinking feeling in my chest today. Can't seem to get rid of it and it's making me so upset, quiet and unhappy. And it's very uncomfortable, it's as if I'd burst into tears anytime or I'm gonna have a heart attack anytime. Horrible feeling. In any case...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIA HIN!
Celebrated her birthday for her today after bowling trials. She cried halfway while we were singing the birthday song! Aww, it was a surprise for her and yay it was successful. Love you girl! You're finally 17! :D Sigh, didn't get to take picture with her ):
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIA HIN!
Celebrated her birthday for her today after bowling trials. She cried halfway while we were singing the birthday song! Aww, it was a surprise for her and yay it was successful. Love you girl! You're finally 17! :D Sigh, didn't get to take picture with her ):
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
LYDIA LOVES YOU!
It's coming the end of Nov already! I've only 4 more weeks left to complete my pile of homework. So pressurizing. Actually, I've less than 4 weeks. YF camp and other stuffs. NOOOOOO.
Val's back from Genting (very)Highlands! YAY. So happy, we're finally gonna be able to meet up and do stuffs together yay!! I really can't imagine her driving :D so glad for her that her papers and worries are finally over and now she can relax and do the stuff that she wants to do for such a long time.
And yes, tomorrow's 31st Nov (:
It's coming the end of Nov already! I've only 4 more weeks left to complete my pile of homework. So pressurizing. Actually, I've less than 4 weeks. YF camp and other stuffs. NOOOOOO.
Val's back from Genting (very)Highlands! YAY. So happy, we're finally gonna be able to meet up and do stuffs together yay!! I really can't imagine her driving :D so glad for her that her papers and worries are finally over and now she can relax and do the stuff that she wants to do for such a long time.
And yes, tomorrow's 31st Nov (:
Love you girls!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
God's joy is our strength
No, nobody should be treated this way. Not the way you treated him.
I can safely say that his IQ is 3 times more than both of yours combined. His EQ is 5 times more than both of yours combined. I don't understand how can anyone say such insensitive words. I think I just contradicted myself, but whatever. I know I appeared nonchalent when I was told what you said. But did you know my heart was pierced with a million daggers from your words? Yes, it did not involve me, nothing to do with me in fact, yet did you ever consider how much hurt your words are going to bring to people? How many people would your words hurt? Emotional hurt, is so much more painful than physical hurt. Assuming you never knew, how would you feel if I said the same things back to you? Undoubtedly you're unrelated to me. You are nobody to me, bluntly put. But what you did hurt me because you hurt someone so close to me. It pains me so much to see him struggling daily, see him going down by the day, seeing him falling sick so often, seeing him slog his guts out to prove to you. I could have been harsher with my words, but no, I wouldn't waste my anger on people like you. If the both of you think you're so great, why aren't you the CEO of a company, earning millions of dollars a year? If the both of you think you're so mighty, why aren't you university graduates? If the both of you think you're so wonderful, why are your own lives so out of balance? Tell me why. Because there is no reason, NONE at all, that allows you to put down someone else in such harsh ways, for you to torture someone the way you did. The both of you should totally take yourselves as the guinea pigs. Don't drag him into something then turn around and blame him after that. He's not your slave, not your servant, not your dog. I cannot tolerate your actions and behaviour. I cannot tolerate your words. What irks me most, is you, someone of nothingness actually striking him with those words. Take a look at yourself before throwing words out. Because words, once gone out, they can't be taken back by using a net or whatsoever. You should learn how to relate to people, learn to sympathise people, learn to read their emotions. Not everything you say makes logical sense, so stop cursing others or putting them down. You don't have a right to do so. It is not in your capacity to do so. Don't worry, I don't hate you, I just despise you.
Yes, finally got it off my chest. The speaker said something today so impactful it keeps pounding in my head. As I prepare for tomorrow's chem re-paper (yes my chem sucks to the max), I'll keep what he said in mind.
God's joy is our strength.
I can safely say that his IQ is 3 times more than both of yours combined. His EQ is 5 times more than both of yours combined. I don't understand how can anyone say such insensitive words. I think I just contradicted myself, but whatever. I know I appeared nonchalent when I was told what you said. But did you know my heart was pierced with a million daggers from your words? Yes, it did not involve me, nothing to do with me in fact, yet did you ever consider how much hurt your words are going to bring to people? How many people would your words hurt? Emotional hurt, is so much more painful than physical hurt. Assuming you never knew, how would you feel if I said the same things back to you? Undoubtedly you're unrelated to me. You are nobody to me, bluntly put. But what you did hurt me because you hurt someone so close to me. It pains me so much to see him struggling daily, see him going down by the day, seeing him falling sick so often, seeing him slog his guts out to prove to you. I could have been harsher with my words, but no, I wouldn't waste my anger on people like you. If the both of you think you're so great, why aren't you the CEO of a company, earning millions of dollars a year? If the both of you think you're so mighty, why aren't you university graduates? If the both of you think you're so wonderful, why are your own lives so out of balance? Tell me why. Because there is no reason, NONE at all, that allows you to put down someone else in such harsh ways, for you to torture someone the way you did. The both of you should totally take yourselves as the guinea pigs. Don't drag him into something then turn around and blame him after that. He's not your slave, not your servant, not your dog. I cannot tolerate your actions and behaviour. I cannot tolerate your words. What irks me most, is you, someone of nothingness actually striking him with those words. Take a look at yourself before throwing words out. Because words, once gone out, they can't be taken back by using a net or whatsoever. You should learn how to relate to people, learn to sympathise people, learn to read their emotions. Not everything you say makes logical sense, so stop cursing others or putting them down. You don't have a right to do so. It is not in your capacity to do so. Don't worry, I don't hate you, I just despise you.
Yes, finally got it off my chest. The speaker said something today so impactful it keeps pounding in my head. As I prepare for tomorrow's chem re-paper (yes my chem sucks to the max), I'll keep what he said in mind.
God's joy is our strength.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
Lydia has a swollen left eye and its hurting much.
Last night I was sending a message to a few friends, and I thought I'd like to share it here with everyone! Well, recently I've been faced with a lot of pressure, with my work piling up and the rate of removal is slower than the increment rate. Sometimes I get so tired from fighting to be strong. I cry, I lament and I almost gave up at times. But it occurred to me one day that God is an ever faithful and dependable God. With Him, all things are made possible (matt19:26). And there was a particular verse that had quite an impact on me, which I'd really like to share with everyone and hope that you too, can find comfort and strength from it.
Ouch, my eye hurts.
Last night I was sending a message to a few friends, and I thought I'd like to share it here with everyone! Well, recently I've been faced with a lot of pressure, with my work piling up and the rate of removal is slower than the increment rate. Sometimes I get so tired from fighting to be strong. I cry, I lament and I almost gave up at times. But it occurred to me one day that God is an ever faithful and dependable God. With Him, all things are made possible (matt19:26). And there was a particular verse that had quite an impact on me, which I'd really like to share with everyone and hope that you too, can find comfort and strength from it.
The power of God transcends the clouds, and also implies that even during "cloudy" periods of our lives, He remains faithful and dependable. God is always there to help us and protect us. He won't let us fall without reason. We should all trust Him with unwavering hearts and serve Him faithfully and lovingly. I believe that God would lift my problems or guide me through difficult times with His hand as long as I continue trusting in Him and loving Him. Same goes for everyone out there. God will always be there to lend a helping hand when needed! :DYour mercy, O Lord, is in the heavens. Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds. (psalm 36:5)
Ouch, my eye hurts.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
To Everything There Is A Season
Ecclesiastes 3:1-11
1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
9 What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?
10 I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.
11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
The same as the choir song, to everything there is a season. Indeed, there is. When the time is come, let it come. Let us welcome it with open hands.
Let us hope in God, and not forget His name. Let's follow in the ways of Him, and ever shall be same.
1 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
9 What profit hath he that worketh in that wherein he laboureth?
10 I have seen the travail, which God hath given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.
11 He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.
The same as the choir song, to everything there is a season. Indeed, there is. When the time is come, let it come. Let us welcome it with open hands.
Let us hope in God, and not forget His name. Let's follow in the ways of Him, and ever shall be same.
I learnt something in church today.
God is faithful and we should, in all times trust in Him and depend on Him.
Even in times of trouble or despair He would always be there to hold us up and not let us fall. That's why I love God, for He is so dependable and faithful. For He is my Father.
God is faithful and we should, in all times trust in Him and depend on Him.
Even in times of trouble or despair He would always be there to hold us up and not let us fall. That's why I love God, for He is so dependable and faithful. For He is my Father.
Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. (1 John 2:15-16)
Saturday, November 14, 2009
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ZHIXIONG KOR :D
I LOVE YOU LOADS!
Hm, there's someone's birthday everyday since Nov started. I'm getting tired from all the wishing of happy birthdays! HAHA. But all the best wishes to the November babies! God bless!
You, whom I had 2months and maybe plus 2 more months of friendship, totally disappointed me. Aren't friends supposed to stick by each other? How come promises are worth so little these days? How come friends aren't truthful to each other anymore? Define friends for me, please someone. If you called yourself my friend, then why am I such a disgrace to you; my name cannot be mentioned, I cannot be seen talking to you or walking beside you? If you said you knew you weren't being fair to me, then why didn't you do anything about it? Why do you keep lying? The hope I had for the past 11 months, I don't harbour anymore. I'll let God lead me in the way He has already paved out for me. If there's no you, then I'll accept it. I've tolerated, I've been patient. So patient, I don't remember myself ever being this way. Towards you, I once had hope. I don't hate you. On the contrary, I still love you, friend.
I'm ranting. It's not an emo post.
I LOVE YOU LOADS!
Hm, there's someone's birthday everyday since Nov started. I'm getting tired from all the wishing of happy birthdays! HAHA. But all the best wishes to the November babies! God bless!
You, whom I had 2months and maybe plus 2 more months of friendship, totally disappointed me. Aren't friends supposed to stick by each other? How come promises are worth so little these days? How come friends aren't truthful to each other anymore? Define friends for me, please someone. If you called yourself my friend, then why am I such a disgrace to you; my name cannot be mentioned, I cannot be seen talking to you or walking beside you? If you said you knew you weren't being fair to me, then why didn't you do anything about it? Why do you keep lying? The hope I had for the past 11 months, I don't harbour anymore. I'll let God lead me in the way He has already paved out for me. If there's no you, then I'll accept it. I've tolerated, I've been patient. So patient, I don't remember myself ever being this way. Towards you, I once had hope. I don't hate you. On the contrary, I still love you, friend.
I'm ranting. It's not an emo post.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Dearest Val
STAY STRONG SENIORS :D
Dear Val,
Remember, it's like climbing Mount Everest. Take a breath before taking another step. Rest a little while before you tackle another steep slope. Remember, BREATHE. Stay calm and I'm sure you can do your best and excel. Stay calm and you can tackle any situation or difficulties with a clear head. Stay calm and your knowledge will not be messed/jumbled up.
Remember that whatever the results are, it's okay. JUST DO YOUR BEST. Give it your best shot. Don't push yourself overboard at the expense of your health okay. Believe in yourself, and life will bring you wonderous miracles. Have hope in life!
I believe that everything happens for a reason. Failures are just times for us to learn. I believe you'll do well! Don't let your emotions affect your last 2 papers! Stay strong val, tap on the strength and support from your family and friends. We're always here for you!
Love,
Lydia
Dear Val,
Remember, it's like climbing Mount Everest. Take a breath before taking another step. Rest a little while before you tackle another steep slope. Remember, BREATHE. Stay calm and I'm sure you can do your best and excel. Stay calm and you can tackle any situation or difficulties with a clear head. Stay calm and your knowledge will not be messed/jumbled up.
Remember that whatever the results are, it's okay. JUST DO YOUR BEST. Give it your best shot. Don't push yourself overboard at the expense of your health okay. Believe in yourself, and life will bring you wonderous miracles. Have hope in life!
I believe that everything happens for a reason. Failures are just times for us to learn. I believe you'll do well! Don't let your emotions affect your last 2 papers! Stay strong val, tap on the strength and support from your family and friends. We're always here for you!
Love,
Lydia
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Sunday, November 08, 2009
little ynja, so innocent and sweet.
And yes, I will trust in Him, and cast my burden unto Him, that He may guide me in the path to take. I shall place tomorrow's OP unto the hands of the Lord, and whatever comes, I'll gladly accept it!The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him. (Psalm 28:7)
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Days do zoom past too quickly. OP's in what, 3 days. Great.
I was just writing something for a dear friend, when I remembered a certain incident. I don't know why you have to hide even from me what you really felt during that time. Why can't you just show it, your concern for her? Why tell me everything, then turn around and tell me a different story? When I face her, and hear her complaints about you, how I want to tell her whatever you said, but I can't, for I promised. It's a struggle. To understand you, and try to keep her unbiased.
As we near the end of the year, separations are inevitable. Miss, as we will, we should never forget those that made an impact in our lives. Keep them in our hearts. And I hope that they will, too, remember us.
I have a wish. A wish for everyone to let go of all their unhappiness and come to love each other. A wish for no one to be ostracized, criticized, cast aside. A wish of hope for all the hurt souls out there. A wish of unity. A wish of forgiveness. A wish of kindness. A wish, of love.
He will be my guide
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