Feeling weak

Went to find Trish this morning and Ruixiang drew an evil smiley on my hand. Moreover, it's still there -.- nice one Ruixiang lol. Hmm, walked down with Trish. Thanks for everything, girl.

School was... amazingly short. 1245pm, we ended today. Chem Atmosphere was actually not as tough as I thought it would be. Then after school was soccer! There was Shih Ting, Yingjie, Ovidia, Serene, Quan Huan, Kia Hin and me! Lynn and Chua Si Min weren't playing though ): Anyway, I think we did improve, and when we played with the guys, it trained us even harder. So yeah, thanks guys and great job girls, we work well together!

These 3 weeks have really let me realise a lot of things. It really gave me the time and space to think about things I had never thought of, or looked back to reflect on. Finally I can understand why those things could happen. In fact, nowadays I feel different, different from how the past Lydia was. I've become how I was expected to be, yet things have changed. Is it too late to regret things?

Just 6 more days, and I'll have to endure the tears of seeing Daddy leave for work overseas for another half a year again. It isn't easy for Daddy, I do understand, but it's hard to part again. Sigh.

Life, what is it?

Went out with Trish today!
It was a very very last minute decision, and that woman ar, takes half an hour to pack her bag -.-

Haha, it's weird because people say we look alike, then when we walk together like sisters liddat. Hmm, as usual I couldn't decide where to go but in the end we went Bugis. The place has really changed from the last time I was there. Goes to show how long I haven't been there! Then we ate at Pastamania. Haven't been there for ages too. We had wanted to try the new Japanese pasta but then in the end somehow, we decided to take back the ones from the normal menu.

Shopping with her is fun! Aye, we always end up in peals of laughter over nothing, especially in the train lol. We bought bday presents for each other, which were about like exactly the same thing, yay, thanks trishy! (: and you're welcome too haha. Today's probably one of the few days that I actually picked myself out from the misery. We should really go out together again some time (:

Haha, I just saw something on Moodle. 4C'08 has a Goh RongHui, 2B'08 has a He RongHui. Lol, and I thought he was the only RongHui in DHS. Cool discovery.

Okay, good luck 4C and all taking the Hamlet test tomorrow (:

Happy 1st month Ynja baby!
Your Aunt Lydia loves you alot! Stay a happy baby!

Trish, I'm dead.

It's hard, but I try to stay the way I have to be. Treasure what you have, don't ever give up so easily on what you have or you cannot turn back. I'm learning, very very hard, to try to take things in my stride. Too many things happening at the same time. Things at home, things in school, things with friends etc.

I don't want to say, don't want to talk about it to anyone. I'm tired. I'm really really tired, I'm giving up on myself already. I'm happy for you, Daryl. Treasure her. She's a really great girl, I can tell. Just I think she needs more concern from you. You're a great nephew to me, so I'm sure you're just equally nice to everyone else too.

Trish, thanks alot. You're the only one who stood by me throughout, even through late at night.

It's hard.
It really is.
It's taking a toll on me.

And I don't know how long more can I hold out.