My current mood is just like the setting sun.
The joyful mood now sinks deep down under, prepared for the upcoming darkness that's about to take over. darkness came.
so quickly.

WHEEEE LYDIA IS HAPPY!!!

I have no idea why. Maybe cos a lot of things happened today which made me so ultimately high and happy. 4C ANGEL MORTAL HAS STARTED! omg i LOVE my mortal, seriously. Haha at SI MIN. WHEEE.

Yesh, I'm ultra super duper high today lol. Though chem extra dragged till 3pm and I only had lunch at 315pm, it's still a fun day. Had lunch with Lynn and Chua at the canteen. (btw, there's a lot of hw but i just can't seem to be bothered since I only reached home at 9pm lol) Went TM with Chua to shop for some people's birthday presents and found out some really amusing stuff. Makes me real happy haha. TWINNEHS!!

Okay I think I'll just stop here. WHEEE AT HAPPINESS!!

laugh as much as you breathe
and love as long as you live

I think I post very rarely this year, which is good. Cos that means I'm actually spending some time to study hahaha.

Days have been the average except for that saddening 25 January. Shan't elaborate too much about it. I think life really isn't unfair. You don't really reap what you sow. No matter how much effort you put into something, it always doesn't seem to turn out right. Or maybe, at least, for me.

Rushing out things to a tight schedule, running from place to place, rushing out deadlines, pressing myself to show results, pushing myself over the limit. What's new? Life goes on.

We've been through turbulences, earthquakes and tornadoes in life. We're supposed to learn from them, but how many of us actually do? People say to learn through our mistakes. Yeah, when the mistake is still fresh and new, people remember it and try not to repeat the same mistake. But as the incident fades off from our very tiny brains, we tend to forget, unless the incident has a very huge impact or impression on us, like a scar which will never fade away. But life goes on.

Trying to do my best with everything, trying to get what people perceive I can do, trying to attain that that result that everyone wants to see me get. Pushing myself over the limit once again. I can feel my feet giving me away as I stand at the edge of the cliff, stumbling and wobbling. Who's going to be there at the bottom of the cliff to save me? Still, life goes on.

Okay breaking off from the emotional thoughts, I wanna thank those who are supporting the choir to come for our choir concert on 4 march. Thank you guys, you've made my 16th birthday a memorable one, sharing the birthday joy with the choir and being able to perform to a hall of audience as well.

Even with all the ups and downs, life goes on.

And in the end,
it's not the years in your life that count.
It's the life in your years.
-Abraham Lincoln

Lol, I'm finally posting again.

This whole week has and will be very hectic. My mind's already exploding from all the weariness. I don't know how long can I last out before I finally crumble. Today was supposed to be such a special day yet I didn't manage to enjoy the most I could of it. Spent most of my time studying and doing up stuff that really drained my energy away. I've been so tired I don't have the mood to do homework at home or even just trying to keep myself awake to do work.

Class has been fun and boring at the same time. Some of us can really lighten the tension of the class in preparation for all the upcoming tests that's just gonna blow our brains apart. This year we're all determined to work hard and score really well for the exams. But some people just don't understand that what they deem easy is just not easy for some of us. By making such an assumption, it actually makes some people feel so uneasy and demoralised. They'd feel so useless for being unable to make it to that standard. People should learn to be sensitive towards the feelings of others and not hurt their self esteem in the midst of attaining something.

While people like you think that it's something so simple, spare a thought for people like us. You aren't the one suffering and struggling out here so you don't know how it feels like when someone says something so hurting as such. Just learn to shut up and choose the right words and not put us down, even if it was unintentional. Just like I said above, gotta learn to be sensitive.

Dread and weariness is taking over my body. I was never like this for school days last time, but now it's taking such a toll on my body that I feel so lifeless and so dead like a zombie. Things haven't been turning out right, days haven't been great, emotions haven't been on the higher tone. But I can't do anything about it except watch myself falling deeper and deeper into such a dangerous abyss.

And as I fall,
I realise how difficult it is
for me to climb back up

WAH IM STARTING TO BECOME A MUGGER O.O

Seriously, haha. I think Mr Jeremy Lim isn't that bad. He brings in a lot of experiments for us to see and get amused with, like today. He did a few stuff and got the whole class roaring with laughter.

Maths was next. We've got a new sitting arrangement, so now I'm sitting with Cui Ting, Lee Si Min and Ovid (: Haha, I'm so glad cause I finally understand Maths and I'm starting to like Maths all over again. Thanks Mr Yap!! Heh. I went up to do a question today then Mr Yap see already he was like "WHOA. That's skipping a lot of steps!" HAHA. After maths I offered to take Rong Hui and Kenneth's stuff back to class then Kenneth had this huge SP file LOL.

Lydia: hey you all want me help you take your things back to class for you?
Rong Hui: Orh, okay, thanks! -passes pencil case and Maths notes-
Kenneth: Errr okay. -passes huge file and pencil case-
Lydia: Okay byebye!
Kenneth: Eh wait! My jacket also.
Rong Hui: (in chinese) take the jacket yourself lah.
Kenneth: (in chinese) lazy to bring along to canteen. -passes jacket to me- thanks.
Lydia: HAHA. okay.
Jordan: (from quite a distance away) WAH. BULLY HER AR.

ROFL. I'm amused. Kenneth said THANKS to me for the first time since I've known him. First time I hear Jordan saying something in my favour. Gosh, this day is really turning out weird.

-skips all that happened in between-

Went for the so-called meeting for the overseas trip exhibition. I've got to do a lot in a very short frame of time. By WED, I need to get the photos and all the reflections out to paste on the board. WTH RIGHT. It's so last minute, for goodness sake.

Anyway, did the girls' auditions with Jane and Tricia. It was quite high at first but slowly it got really low in the waiting room. Ms Lin popped in for awhile to hear the singing, then we three took turns to audition. Yupp, that's all I'll say. By the time we went back to join the main choir, it was already 5.40pm so we didn't do much, only did a bit of choreo. Heh, but Gen, Kasey and I were getting really high at the back hahaha.

Went home together with Trish, Jing Qi, Zi Xuan and Clement. Some interesting stuffs happened along the way which I won't be saying here, but the 5 of us know hahaha. Nice MRT ride, we were talking bout a lot of stuffs, thought it was quite interesting. Only it was a bit quiet because Zi Xuan alighted at Outram today haha.

Think I'll just stop here today haha. It's kinda long.

hanging on.
to that thin thread of hope

RARR I'M LAZY TO POST

Choir has been fine, school has been the usual, homework has been piling but amazingly i've finished all my homework. hahahaha. good luck 4C! for tomorrow's chem class test, we can do it haha. we'll show her our class is capable of chemistry lol.

Okay I'm seriously lazy. So byebye!

it hasn't ended,
it's still clinging on there,
on a thin line of thread

Well well.

Had all the main subjects today except Physics. Quite boring, but I loved Geog lesson with Mr Leong. He's a great teacher yay! The other lessons were really making most of us sleep, especially those TWO lessons haha.

Choir was okay, I guess. Learnt the pronunciation for the hungarian songs today. Gillian, Charmaine and I were like trying to fit the words with the notes and we got all high trying to pronounce them properly hahaha. When you read it, it actually sounds quite like Vietnamese.

(continued blogging on 12/1/08)

After choir, Wansi and I discussed the soprano stuff. Jing Qi left with Wan Si shortly after then Trish and I worked together for the list of names. Just when we wanted to leave, it started pouring heavily so we were stranded in school. After that we met Zhuofei, Gloria, Kennard, Arthur and Ruixian. We did homework together yay! The rain dropped to a drizzle soon after, so I met Rong Hui and we left together. Asked Trish to join us cos she's rushing for piano, but she refused lol.

Was in the same MRT as this two really AP Year1 guys whom I auditioned. They recognised me too and gave me the look like "OMG so suay". I was thinking that way too lol cos they really were very bad to the seniors heh.

Thanks Rong Hui! (:

My niece and nephew came over. Haha, they are really so cute!! I shall upload pictures when I feel like it (x But I reached home really late last night that I didn't really spend a lot of time with them, mainly cos I was too tired too. The moment I laid down on bed I immediately fell asleep. Lol.

Okay I'll end off here. TATA~

where is the love

Start of school lessons!

I wasn't in a mood today cause I was really tired and I had splitting headaches the whole day. Chinese is real weird, plain weird, ENTIRELY WEIRD. There's this pen pal thing, and I got a girl called WEITING. Shih Ting got a JUNHAO. Can't remember who Si Min got though haha. Rong Hui got a girl called SHUNING haha. (Eh no, I'm not jealous. Trust! =D)

Choir Audition for 1A - 1F! Heh, it was quite fun actually, except for some. Can't say too much here. Just wish all the Year1s good luck in getting their ideal CCA. Hope there'll be more guys joining choir this year or the intake will be so small, future choir will be like having only 30 people LOL.

Thanks for sending me home though it was late, it's very much appreciated! Whee.

Oh man, I'm getting all flu-ey and sneezey. Hope I'm not falling sick huh. Oh yeah, did class comm nominations today and I was in one of them. Lucky for me I'm not in comm! But thanks to those who nominated me, thanks for believing in me. Our comm didn't change much though.

I think I'll end here.

a world of ours

Oh man I'm really tired.

Concerts were okay. Room was okay too cos this year we didn't need to perform 12 times, only 4 times cos they came in groups of 3 classes. Yeah this year we sang I'm Gonna Sing, Lion Sleeps Tonight and Disney Spectacular. We did a bit of choreo ahaha.

Tricia and I kept walking around and wanting to go see a certain area so much that Jing Qi was a bit frustrated with us ahha. Sorry hor Qi. Yay, we were super happy when we walked past or saw a certain stuff that we want

Jerrold and Jun Tao came back today. Well I expected it, cos I was the one who told Jun Tao about the stuff today. Jerrold worked with us on I'm Gonna Sing and it really turned out very very nice. The tenors sounded real nice (: yay. Thanks Jerrold! He's really a very good conductor xD

Went home with Jing Qi, Zi Xuan and Clement. The ride was very funny haha. We had waffles before that wheee, very nice. Talked to Rong Hui on the phone quite long before that and they were like teasing me LOL. You guys ar =X

Formal lessons start tomorrow! Gotta start working hard again. But somehow I can't wait to get back studying, working hard for tests and exams and this year, EARLY HOLIDAYS! haahha. JIAYOU YEAR4s 2008 xD

with the smile of happiness

well! kor returned home today!

yay, and i changed my blogskin. haha, i think trish is gonna be so jealous. STITCH IS SO CUTE!! ((: yupp. This blogskin was quite easy to change yeah. haha. very simple, unlike another one that i was trying to edit, rarr. It turned out real bad. But nevermind, I should be able to fix it soon. Hope so =/

Oh Kor was great. He made dinner today. Actually it's a very simple meal. Even I can do it, but indeed, it was really really really NICE!!! Thanks Kor, for the dinner, it was great. He bought me a new wallet too!! Snoopy wallet. Yay, very nice, thanks!

Ooh tomorrow's CCA day! Gonna do a lot of singing (: heh, jiayou choir!

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had choir today. practice for CCA day next monday. It was quite okay and well, actually I think it's quite fun to be zixuan's page flipper. He'd like laugh halfway while playing and he still can go on LOL.

Fixed the choir banner with Tricia. Took quite long to do it and we had to use the choir badge to poke a hole in the banner so the raffia can get through. Then we had to connect two raffias together. The wind was so strong and the banner kept flipping and blowing away and the raffia strings aren't strong enough. So later Rong Hui, Kenneth, Jun Jie, Melvin and Jordan walked past so I got Kenneth and Rong Hui to help. Yay, thanks guys.

Had lunch with Trish and Rong Hui at Bluespoon! LOL. Actually Rong Hui was watching us eat cos he'd already eaten. Trish and I were like talking about a lot of stuff. Heh, yay he doesn't whack me (:

Trish joined Jessica, Zona and San Peng at the MRT and left me and Rong Hui lol. Yeah. Like that lorh haha.

Later went out with parents. AND I DIDN'T HAVE DINNER ): rawr.

the stars and the moon

if there's a whale, there's a way!

mural painting day!

at first the whole class did it together, so it was quite fun. I was in the cutting team which conmprised of Shih Ting, Cui Ting, Lee Si Min, Qi Hang, Chen Yang, Zeng Qi, Jie Zhi, Rong Hui and me! It was really fun cutting the styrofoam and smoothening the corners.

I really had fun today. Yay, everyone was very crap though haha. Our whole class roared with laughter at the catch phrase up there lol. It was Jun Hao and Chak's idea, and it really was hilarious. Tsun Leung and Quan Huan were real funny leading us too haha. It was fun!

Okay that's it. BYEEEE

Omg first day of school!!

Yay, I was really high in the morning, entering the new LT classroom. Okay seriously, I hate it. I don't like the tables and chairs and OOH! the air con is quite cold, but it's kinda nice, for a person like me who likes the cold.

Mr Ken Leong is THE NICE!! Yeah, he's a real nice teacher. Haha, everything's kept within the class so I can't say much here, just that he's a very special teacher, just like Mr Noel Yap! Yay, very happy.

Oh LOL, I'm captain for the sandcastle building tomorrow. TEAM 8! 4A, 4B and 4C all belong in the red zone and the Zone Mayor comes from 4C!! SO NICE RIGHT HAHA. Guess who it is? It's none other than the infamous Suvichak Thongborisoot LOL. Then Deputy Mayors are Terence Yong (haha 4C's one again! yay!) and Mok Zi Le. But I think the red zone is not bad, very hyper haha.

Then there's sad news. Hoyee's in 4A now ): haix, so 4C has only 35 people now. Oh well, wish her all the best there, and hope she can excel (:

Okay I'm settling some stuff now, so I'll stop here xD

EDIT: certain things aren't what they seem. i've finally understand why some people say that we should never judge a book by it's cover. many a time, we'd think we truly understand something, someone or a situation well. but how well do we actually know them?

just today i realised that things aren't going the way i thought it was. emotional stirrups, decisions and aches. part and parcel of life i suppose. i just never thought things would have to end up this way.

sacrifices. everyone would make a fair bit of sacrifices in their life for what they deem the "right" choice. but how often are we sure that our choice would always be the right one? we're just taking a gamble, a risk because we'd never know what the outcome would be like.

and i hope i made the right choice.

EDIT 2:
i didnt know it'd be so hard to accept.

HAPPY 2008 EVERYONE!!

Oh I know this blog has been dead for very long. I just remembered this blog today. Everyone must be happy okay! Love yall!