4C made it again! (:
And so did 4H and 4I. 4C.H.I. for a CHInese presentation -.- Still, I don't understand my role. I know it's real irritating, but I can't help it if I'm supposed to act as a stupid girl who sajiaos like dunno what. I only got the script right before I had to present it. So to those out there who did what you did, I appreciate you knowing my presence, but I don't appreciate what you did. If you don't respect others, then don't expect me to respect you. I won't. You guys, and you in particular, should look into the mirror before you come crashing at me.

Good job Trish. You were not bad. Yushang's part was really funny. Haha, and hearing you repeat the same sentence over and over again. Cute little reporter, girl.

Sometimes I feel like tearing down the whole building. But then, I'd stop and think and realise that I'm not that angry actually. My temperament's improved, but I guess nobody realises it, not that I need anybody to. Thank you Jing Qi, for yesterday's chat! (: Oh, I have so many people to thank for making things worse than they already are. Seriously, I don't understand why things are like that. What happened today was far yet more examples of this. When I had trusted him/her, he/she had turned around to the other person and done things behind my back.

I just told a friend (=D) that I actually quite enjoy this alone thing, for this moment. Yet at times, I still do reminisce. It's called feelings. I do feel hurt, I do feel sad, I do feel alone like all other humans. Faking a smile is so normal for me now. When you've gotten used to hiding your feelings, it's as though you're acting, only you have to make sure that the people don't know that you are. Jing Qi, don't hide your feelings. Just show them all out. Don't be like me, it only makes you feel worse.

I can't wait for holidays. I can't wait for Vienna. I can't wait to get out of this place. And to think 3 months plus ago, I couldn't bear to leave this place at all. I can't wait to escape. I can't wait for the 2nd year end trip to visit daddy. I can't wait to escape again. I love 4C, I admit. But I still do feel weak at times, and it's when I really want to escape.


不想懂得
当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想象是一种快乐
拥有了 同时也失去什么
而眷恋 原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟
心开始曲折
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得 不想懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的
我愿意 一秒钟放弃全宇宙
挤在只有我们紧靠的小星球
我不想舍得 不想懂得
是谁惹谁 言不由衷
说谎伤害 都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得 多不懂得
谁说割爱 才更深刻
彼此依赖 是爱不是负荷
能握着手就是感动的